In 7.5 years we have not known why Eli is the way he is. We have seen specialist after specialist, changed his diet, filled him with supplements, B12 shots and chelation therapy, but it was all part of a guessing game. This diagnosis is a really big deal. Today is only day 1...I really have no idea what it really means to our family, but I know it is big.
So far today I have decided a two things:
1) This genetic test confirmed that I did nothing wrong...even though I know I didn't and that I did everything right that was within my control, this genetic diagnosis takes it completely out of my hands. It is also confirmation that God created Eli exactly how he was supposed to be and that it is a privilege to have been chosen to be Eli's mother. Not that I didn't already think this...but now I have confirmation.
2) I am grateful to have learned a few years ago that "you can only absorb the information when you can absorb the information". So I don't have to go through the guilt of beating myself up for not having done the genetic test sooner. In fact, I am so glad we didn't. I wouldn't have learned all I have learned over these years. I wouldn't have met the people I have met or become the person I have become.
Amy, I'm glad you feel like you at least have a few answers now and I'm glad you are blogging again! Hopefully regularly?? Either way, I love it and love being able to keep up with you guys and I think blogging is therapudic, even if it's just the daily ramblings of your life! If you need any blogger help, just let me know.
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